TO GO OR NOT TO GO
The news of David coming again to our region this November has created alot of buzz including amongst our AAM’ers and the other Malaysian fans.
My initial reaction was excitement and great joy. To be able to see David Live has always been felt as a heaven-sent opportunity.
But I was totally aghast when I saw the date – November 19. It is for me a day every year when every invitation is refused and every possibility of self-free-wheeling rejected out of respect for someone in the family.
But this year,with David coming so close to our shores, I was devastatingly confronted by one of the most difficult decisions of my life.
David has for the past few years, given me me so much spiritual fulfilment which, at this point of my life, is very much needed.
My response to my dear friends at AAM was: “Oh nooo….I can’t go on that day!…”
Several sleepless nights ensued after that.
Then I decided to throw caution or whatever to the wind and go for the concert.
I started contacting some of my AAM buddies and, with their help, began to make preparations for my trip down south to see David.
But this devil-may-care bravado did not last long and I dwindled again in guilt.
This “going” and “not going” quandary lasted for days (and nights).
Eventually, I had to draw my strength from a strong belief which I have carried through all my life:
I may be important to me.
But the expectations of the people in my life are also important.
I do not live this life exclusively to myself.
Others who depend on me for certain happinesses which I can give them, are also helping me and giving me support to have the happiness I have.
There are things and people in one’s life that are larger than ourselves.
So I made a firm decision. Sad for me, but it has to be done.
I will have to wait for another David concert another time, another place.
I really need to thank my AAM buddies who have given me so much support and understanding:
Shu who have selflessly considered changing her route to Singapore to fit me in.
Shirley for helping me sort out my computer problems.
Akang for her “human” advice.
John for his cheeky yet realistic point of view and cheering me up and making me laugh.
Sheba for sharing her excitement and giving me words of comfort.
Jennie for her personal concern for me.
Paik Yee for her concern of my sadness.
They have been a great source of comfort to me . That is why I think this Club genuinely upholds the many qualities which David stands for.
Thank you to all of you!
For those who will be going to Singpore, I know for sure you will have a great, amazing time!!!