What a ride it has been!
Even now, the waves rise and crash and I am swirled around. I must sit down. Collect my breath. Maybe sip another cup of camomile tea; followed later by something stronger. Unmentionable – this is a true blue-blood David Archuleta site. And That, a true “David-coming- out” blog. How can anyone not take his/her hat off to such determined courage? How can anyone not empathise with such a sincere, heartfelt and dang honest confession?
Disappointments have brought about negative emotions and comments. Impact of realisations have hit many heads that, in truth, what they want does not synchronise with what he wants. That love shared is not always love requited in balanced proportions. That love could never be measured equally. Things of the past need to be let go and remain in the past, for reasons he had mentioned. I admire him for his strength to let go. It takes more strength to let go than to hang on to the familiar.
I say “Hallelujah, David!”for his coming of age and being utterly true to not just himself, also in the face of a judgmental world, though I crouch in a mellow pensiveness.
However, I would rather focus on the bigger picture: his growth in music as his mind and character grow, producing an edgier side of him. Whatever petty feelings of selfishness I have, I prefer to let them go and be open to his truths.
Only when we are free of the encumbrance of our constant anticipation, can we feel free to enjoy, to the full, the ride. And, to me, the ride still carries on. Perhaps on a different carriage, but the ride continues. Because I know he will not give up his music – the music of his choice – like we will not give up breathing.
What he asks for is a little deserved space. A little time. And everything we crave for from him must be done at HIS pace, not ours.