A new breeze is approaching and is about to breathe through David’s life … again. The imminence of his Return is filling me with musings of tender nostalgia.
From Star Search to Idol to Rockstar to Mormon Missionary, he has been reborn as many times as his apparent need of it. In another couple of months, will he, like the Phoenix in Greek mythology, cyclically regenerate and is reborn once more?
On desiring to become
You begin to live
– Rene Daumal (French poet) –
Whilst looking forward keenly to watching David’s music future, part of me still refuses to leave altogether the treasure trove he left me from the distant past when he was only 17 years old … his unforgettable older songs … his cute childhood pictures (even though he has now grown into such a good looking dude!) It is perhaps owed to an unconscious effort to alleviate my 2-year misery of various anxieties which, until such time, do not seem to want to go away.
David will be going through a huge transition when he returns from a life totally different – like a life reborn. Like a transition which points to having lost everything – yet seems to have everything to gain and everything and more to “re-live” for.
My sun Sets to Rise again
– Robert Browning –
The irony, I feel, is that we Archies probably feel the same way too about ourselves with our own David-related transitional anxieties. Will we soar over the moon with joy about his future musical choices? Or will we feel let down by our own overly high expectations? Or will we feel like our love and opinions of him will be reborn in a way personal to ourselves?
I can’t help recalling my own prognosis 5-6 years ago, that the ride with him would be both exhilarating and patience-exhausting – given his youth then together with his comparative inexperience and an idealistic sense of adventure, all understandable from a besotted fan’s point of view. It would be a bumpy ride.
However, such is the characteristic of a “human” journey. That is the big difference between a David-journey and “a frolic-down-the-alleyway” with many other artistes and entertainers. David may be just a “music-maker” to some, but it is, in the most part, the “human” element between David and us Archies, which has always been the underlying factor that binds us to him and his spirit.
So I would choose to be with you
That’s if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes and so it goes
And you’re the only one who knows