Almost a year into David’s absence and missing new music from him, so, driven by frustration and sweet nostalgia, I began to recollect all the songs David had sung to us. I piled all the song titles I can remember together and voila! – came up with this rojak story. It sounds rather silly actually but we’re all wackos here, so I guess everything is in order.
Although this story is inspired by David’s song titles, it has absolutely NOTHING to do with David … or me. It’s just a teenage boy-girl love story shaped and designed by the titles themselves over which I have no control. So here goes – the rants of a young, confused girl bound in helpless love:
It is MY KIND OF PERFECT of a SILENT NIGHT with no RIU RIU CHIU sounds of the nightingale. I see no FALLING STARS from HEAVEN in the distance and no dark clouds BROKEN into rain. I have resting in the palm of MY HANDS, a little figurine of my GESU BAMBINO, and the repeated recitation of THE PRAYER of O HOLY NIGHT in my head. On a quiet night like this, there is really NOTHING ELSE BETTER TO DO than to sink into nostalgia CONTIGO EN LA DISTANCIA about you, and to think about WHO I AM. After this, I will go into the kitchen and PAT-A-PAN-cake.
A beautiful but transient RAINBOW has dissipated into the skies, taking away its promise to carry you and me to SOMEWHERE ONLY WE KNOW - somewhere, while REACHING OUT, you and I may find our very own GOOD PLACE again to love and to be loved FOREVERMORE in our FIELDS OF GOLD.
I think to myself, MAYBE, WHEN YOU BELIEVE it enough, if you WAIT patiently enough, I will one day fly on a wing of a special ANGEL of all heavenly ANGELS to a magic place TO BE WITH YOU, and once more relish the wonderment of our own TRUE COLOURS and at last MY SOUL BE STILL. So, LET’S TALK ABOUT LOVE and how my heart was eventually BROKEN.
SMOKEY MOUNTAIN MEMORIES bring back the sweetness of my CRUSH on you when I was little. After all these many years, I am still A LITTLE TOO NOT OVER YOU as that BRIDGE OVER TROUBLED WATER did not help.
You say to me: I’LL NEVER GO. And then you turn away and say: LET ME GO. TELL ME, do I now have to roam and LOOK AROUND and SHOP AROUND for someone new? Or should I beg you to please please please HOLD ON?
I plead for you to NOTICE ME for my DESPERATE disposition, but you say: ‘FALALALALA……I’m travelling A THOUSAND MILES to spend ANOTHER DAY IN PARADISE as far as ABOVE THE NORTHERN LIGHTS.’ You say you need to go take a SLEIGH RIDE by a LONG AND WINDING ROAD to follow THE RIBBON IN THE SKY …. across the impenetrable BARRIERS …. through a timeless zone with NO AIR to get away. You say you need to DREAM SKY HIGH and CLIMB EVERY MOUNTAIN by way of some PARACHUTES AND AIRPLANES while WAITING ON THE WORLD TO CHANGE. MAYBE I’M AMAZED or maybe I’m dumb, where is this place you are talking about? Am I FALLING into your trap??
You keep on saying to me: DON’T STOP BELIEVING …. I’LL BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS. You keep on assuring me: DON’T GIVE UP… I’ll be back soon … it’ll just feel lik it’s THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW . I plead with you again … please DON’T RUN AWAY … I cannot IMAGINE life without you …. there ‘s something about you … and there’s SOMETHING ABOUT LOVE.
You lose patience with me and you say: Listen, SWEET CAROLINE, don’t be SENSELESS and make a fuss … (But my name is not ‘Caroline’!!) … oh I mean … listen, MARY, DON’T YOU KNOW that I WANNA KNOW YOU better and I wanna be WITH YOU? I do APOLOGISE for leaving for awhile - just THINK OF ME … LOVE ME TENDER … LONGER than there’ve been fishes in the ocean ok? Promise me you’ll STAND BY ME ok? I know YOU CAN do it! I swear THINGS ARE GONNA GET BETTER. LOVE DON’T HATE me. Here, my love, TOUCH MY HAND and you’ll have faith in me. You just GOTTA GET THROUGH THIS …… and oh…..by the way… HAVE YOURSELF A MERRY LITTLE CHRISTMAS while I’m gone……oh..and HAPPY BIRTHDAY too!
AND SO IT GOES …. you never returned.
I should have seen it coming. I should have seen THE MAN IN THE MIRROR. Even THE CAT AND MOUSE watching us, knew what was coming …. YOUR EYES DON’T LIE …your cheatin’ eyes sparkle while you whistle - as you start RUNNING away from me – to go chase butterflies and another RAINBOW, while I gaze at your shadow, WAITING FOR YESTERDAY.
EVERYBODY HURTS and so do I. EVERYBODY WANTS TO RULE THE WORLD and so do you. Whenever you call me your SOUL SISTER and say to me ’I'M YOURS’, my tears flood the floor. When you look into my eyes and say: ‘WHEN YOU SAY YOU LOVE ME, do you know how I love you…?’ my heart falls out of my belly. But when you say: LEAN ON ME, and I do, you strut away while I’m in the act of leaning.
My best friend tries to comfort me that she is here for me, but I think to myself: boohoo… But SHE’S NOT YOU! My Dad is impatient with me and yells: WHAT CHILD IS THIS?! - sobbing like a waterfall!
Now I hum AVE MARIA to myself and pray that you will change your mind and make a U-turn back to me. I don’t wanna spend THIS CHRISTMAS all alone and listen to MELODIES OF CHRISTMAS all by moi-self.
Oh well …. LET IT BE… my HERO and my LITTLE DRUMMER BOY, like a BLACKBIRD, has taken the BROKEN ROAD GOD BLESS, and flown away via some sort of GRAVITY called ZERO, or izzit by some doggone up-n-down ELEVATOR . I’d be dangged if I continue to cry. Since I’m NOT A VERY GOOD LIAR, I confess I won’t even COMPLAIN everyday - I’ll just go crazy STOMPING THE ROSES and eat some worms.
IN THIS MOMENT, I need some peace of mind … Oh please… DON’T LET THE SUN GO DOWN ON ME! I NEED A SILENT NIGHT to retrace my steps and regain my life. SOMEBODY OUT THERE will surely one day help solve this love RIDDLE and SAVE THE DAY for me, and I will be my old BUBBLY self again. Besides, I still have EVERYTHING AND MORE in my sweet reminiscences of you and I want to say to you: WHEREVER YOU ARE, YOU ARE MY SONG. Since I’m a bit of an idiot with no PRIDE IN THE NAME OF LOVE, I guess it WORKS FOR ME.
Thank you David for giving us all those songs…and erm….also for inspiring this cheesy story! Lol!